“When I was young, I learned from my family that my emotions and feelings were wrong and unproductive,” said Sara Fusco. “I kept a lot of things to myself, especially my feelings and experiences. I didn’t have a close relationship with either of my parents, and after being physically and sexually abused by a family member, I learned that home was not safe for me. I had major trust issues and sought attention through accomplishments and perfectionism.
“I first heard the gospel of Christ through a Bible study hosted by two girls on my high school soccer team. I learned that God gifts us eternal life through His Son, Jesus (Romans 6:23) – and that we can have a personal relationship with Him. I couldn’t believe someone wanted to have a relationship with me. That night I gave my life to Christ, admitted my sins, and told God I trusted Him. It made a difference in my life, but it didn’t immediately take away my feelings of being worthless and unlovable.
“I spent my freshman year of college making choices that were not honoring to the Lord, in a search for worth, security, and love. But my sophomore year, God brought my two friends from high school to play college soccer with me. I lived in two worlds for a while: partying with one group of friends and hosting a Christian club with the other. I look back and can see that regardless of my unfaithful and confusing actions, the Lord was pursuing me the whole time.
“God really changed my heart through the time I spent with Christian friends and attending Christian conferences for college students. Even the smallest steps of obedience and the time I spent learning about Christ helped me decide I wanted to walk in His ways instead of my own. I wanted to turn away from selfish, worldly living and put down my exhausting self-reliance that had led to depression.
“As my actions and desires started to change, I needed a way to process my past experiences and family issues. I started talking to a leader at my church, and we spent the first three or four months just studying the Bible and building a biblical perspective on life. I needed to know who God says I am, not what the world or my family said. I started to have a real hunger for knowing God’s Word.
“When we read Psalm 139, I learned God doesn’t make mistakes. I learned my worth is from God, not what I said or did, or in what others said or did to me. It was freeing and life-altering for me to see that God truly loves me and says I am worthy. My contentment and security are found in Him.
“This freedom and new knowledge of Scripture helped me process how hurts from my past impacted my relationship with God. The issues that affected my life had to be addressed directly with Truth, and for so long I didn’t know Truth. Trusting in Christ and learning the Bible allowed me to forgive and find healing in a way that logic never could. God is the only source of Truth, and He has truly transformed my heart and mind (Romans 12:2). When I attack the lies by believing in God’s Word, they no longer carry weight or have power over me.
“God says He will never leave or forsake us (Deuteronomy 31:6). No matter how far I’ve felt from Him, He has never left me. I can look at Scripture and be reminded that He is always there. If I don’t feel a close relationship to the Lord, it’s because I have turned away, not because He has left me.
“As a believer, I’ve been able to use what I’ve learned to pour into the lives of others through mentoring and leading in Women’s Bible Study. From feeling worthless and unlovable to experiencing the great love Christ has for me, God set me on a path where I can now help others know they are loved and worthy in the Lord. I can speak truth into their pain because I’ve been there before. Over and over, I see the Lord redeem my story and use it for His Kingdom. God never desired that life for me, but He uses it for good. I am truly humbled that He would allow me to be a vessel to reach other people in the midst of their pain.”
Join Women’s Bible Study starting January 20 to study Judges and Ruth: God’s Faithfulness Remains and to be reminded that even in the midst of uncertainty, hardship, and rebellion, God’s steadfast love and faithfulness remain.